[Jaybar]

lol, spartan. Yea, I always seem him on my FL in either Asura or Fairy, usually Fairy. I quit for the fall though, so I haven't been online in a while ;-; How's Bizzy goin?

[GamezAsura]

Fendy :

GamezAsura :
let me visit bismarck o.o

come! we will level pup together on a magical evening under the stars

.... *stays on Asura :|*

[Elisa/Naruko]

Ase try joining Total Chaos. it's all about helping each other. it's the only other endgame ls i thought of as home besides when i was in Aurora. i think you'd like it hun. and you prob don't remember me cuz i joined relics right before it broke but you can always call me a friend. if you need anything hun let me know okie. i'm always happy to help cuz it's my way of repaying those to helped me in need. i helped Jaybarbar get his assult jerkin and i didn't even know him. i just saw it posted and offered to help. but yeah i'm on weekends Ase if you ever need anything. granted i don't have elisa anymore cuz she was hacked and deleted 4x and naruko was cleaned out, but i still bounced back. so i still have a 74 thf to help with anything. just drop me a tell hun. /hugs

[Jaybar]

Elisa/Naruko :
i helped Jaybarbar get his assult jerkin and i didn't even know him. i just saw it posted and offered to help.

<3 :love Can you give Havocc a /slap for me, I see you are in ProjectMayhem =P Oh, give the same to Jellybean, please ^^

[GamezAsura]

( i r sad this thread even died out when I was trying to talk with Bismarck people, ASELIN YOU HATH ABANDONED US!

-- sidenote.. Asura has some nice drama again.. :love

[Fendy]

Elisa/Naruko :
it's the only other endgame ls i thought of as home besides when i was in Aurora.

/Reminisce

[octoberasian]

GamezAsura :
ASELIN YOU HATH ABANDONED US!

>.>

<.<

Me? Abandoned you guys?

Naww!

I'm still here, just mostly around the Tech Help, Miscellaneous, and Wake-UP Grandma's Dead forums.
Other than that, not sure what to post in the Bismarck forums. *thinks*

And, on top of that, I'm busy making a person's signature for this forum. At the same time, trying to figure out what to add to my website-- that I have seemed to have left undone for nearly 2 years. -.-;;;

Oh... a "Hello" to Elisa. ^^/
And, thank you. Tell Muttice, Lonewolfy, Owen, 'Pun, and Gator I said "Hi" as well. ~.^)/

Doubtful I ask for help anyway. It's really rare that I do. I give more than I recieve in this game. At times, it feels like I'm being used, but I don't really care, as long as I'm helping someone. LIke I always say: "if no one helps them, who will?"

I don't know at this point where to go or what to do. I stay logged out 90% of the time now. No HNMs to camp. No more Limbus, especially since I can't afford it-- I only have 22k on me. I help a friend and his LS with Sky farming and killing gods on random-- no reward to myself. I do Dynamis every Saturday.

Given the reputations and the hearsay I've heard of nearly every endgame LS on Bismarck, it's doubtful I will ever find a quiet, non-problematic, non-drama, non-elitist, non-greedy, permanent home to call my own on Bismarck. With the end of Relics, AlphaOmega, and FortyTwo, I feel like I'm more of a bad luck than anything else when it comes to endgame LSes.

Four of my friends that are in Unreal, are asking me to apply to that LS. And, they tell me similar: Do it for yourself, don't care about what others say about you. They don't want to see me quit the game. They want me to join just so I could do endgame again, and do LS events together with them again, like old times back in Relics.

The problem in this fucking game is that people will always care who you are with and what you do. It's like one wrong move and you are immediately branded a traitor, or even worse, considered to be the same lot as the people in the LS you are in. If Unreal has been accused of botting and cheating, I'd be accused of being a cheater and a botter. It's like fucking high school again. Stupid idiots in this game, they care more about image than who the person really and truly is on the inside. If I were a part of DragonGroup LS, I'd be branded a Gilseller on the outright.

When you are accused of being a traitor, selfish, a liar, and unhelpful for a good part of two years, you see the game differently. You take what is meant to be joking around as an immediately insult-- hence why I will never joke around with people for fear I might hurt their feelings. Niceness will never get you anywhere in this game, it's one thing I've learned. It's the un-nice and greedy and insulting people that'll get everything they want. Though that's not everyone in this game-- it does cover the majority of them.

It's why I hate cliques and groupies, I've avoided them ever since high school. I kept to myself in the school's library during lunch and help random students higher or lower than my grade level with computers, homework, and library questions-- even if I wasn't an official library assistant or school tutor. I just helped because I wanted to.

So, Elisa, I'm not sure where to go at the moment. I'm still thinking about what to do in this game. There's still a lot of things I'd like to do and items I'd like to get. It just seems impossible with my current outlook and way of thinking as I how see this game. I'd just like to enjoy the game again, find those little things that make it fun. It's very doubtful I can find that kind of thing in endgame.

All I have left to do are Assaults, merit, level another job to 75, and help random people.

If people were only different, changed, maybe I'd go and apply to an endgame LS. But seeing as how the majority of them are just the same as in real life, they seem more cruel than the Chinese government killing off dogs who may or may not have rabies.

Again, if need any help-- computers, school subjects (math up to Calc, English, history or science), quests, missions, BC/KS/ISNMs-- just look me up, my help's always free. Of course, if you'd like to chat (though I tend to be a very quiet person), that would be alright as well.

- Ase ^^

[GamezAsura]

/stagger, I didn't think I'd be able to read your entire post when I saw it's size, then I realized I write just as much in asura forums sometimes.

I can completely understand your perspective of helping everyone, and sometimes feeling abit used in doing such, but sometimes it pays off in ways you don't expect, it builds your reputation as a person and shows good qualities, and I'm exactly the same way anymore, all I do it seems is sky, dynamis, ls event, assault, and idle my game and sit on msn/aim talking to my friends, using ls chat and trolling forums.

Honestly, I'm burnt out, and reasonably so, playing 3 years and only really touching and developing one job, the rest of it helping establish my linkshells, or helping people, even strangers for full days, and I've seen alot of friends come and go throughout that process once I'm done helping them.

As far as linkshells go, I was turned off by the attitude of certain members, the greedy and the arrogant of HNM LS regardless how many friends inside the shell I'd established, it just killed my enthusiasm, took me 3 monthes flying solo after my linkshell of 2 years kicked me over personal squabble until I started up this shell with friends, and its going smooth, but even trying to keep everyone happy and attempting to maintain perfect attendence between my rl is a headache >.>;

I'll stick to Bismarck for finding you, gives you a reason to visit home~, and about your website, I know exactly what it needs, more galka!

[Elswood]

asura needs more whale lovers

[GamezAsura]

Sorry, you only get me, and that's even looking grim at this response rate. But hey, I made your first red topic in what seems to be years, lol.

[Ryuumaru]

meh.

[GamezAsura]

You stole my ding.. ( look, first two page thread in forever, whoo.. so ronery.. even bismarck people dont love bismarck.. this is sad.

[Jaybar]

Elswood :
asura needs more whale lovers

lolwhale

[Elswood]

Jaybar :

Elswood :
asura needs more whale lovers

lolwhale

loldrg













You saw that coming.

[GamezAsura]

He's just being prepared... harpoon and all (

[mArTyR_]

Lol... drama?

All I know is that Hoodlam got banned and is now lvling another char :S

[Jaybar]

Elswood :

Jaybar :

Elswood :
asura needs more whale lovers

lolwhale

loldrg













You saw that coming.

Just needed to throw a little chum out there to get you to bite.

[octoberasian]

mArTyR_ :
Lol... drama?

All I know is that Hoodlam got banned and is now lvling another char :S

Hoodlam, as in the Gilseller from DragonGroup LS?

*throws a party*

Yay!
Bakarayo called me a whore in Cantonese while camping Ulli a few weeks ago. >.>;
He thought I didn't understand Cantonese, so I called his LS, in return, f***offs and other choice words in their native tongue. <.<
Boy, was he surprised. He proceeded to respond to me: "Ulli mine." and "Your LS no get" or something in his best English.

At least, there's some light in this game, even it's a tiny little bulb.
They should ban his entire LS as well. -.-;

[mArTyR_]

octoberasian :

mArTyR_ :
Lol... drama?

All I know is that Hoodlam got banned and is now lvling another char :S

Hoodlam, as in the Gilseller from DragonGroup LS?

*throws a party*

Yay!
Bakarayo called me a whore in Cantonese while camping Ulli a few weeks ago. >.>;
He thought I didn't understand Cantonese, so I called his LS, in return, f***offs and other choice words in their native tongue. <.<
Boy, was he surprised. He proceeded to respond to me: "Ulli mine." and "Your LS no get" or something in his best English.

At least, there's some light in this game, even it's a tiny little bulb.
They should ban his entire LS as well. -.-;

LOL

About time most of them get banned for botting Ulli.

But im sure once Hoodlam gets his new char up they will bot again...

I am so waiting for the Lazy GM's to just ban everyone in that shell.

[Elswood]

octoberasian :
Bakarayo called me a whore in Cantonese while camping Ulli a few weeks ago. >.>;
He thought I didn't understand Cantonese, so I called his LS, in return, f***offs and other choice words in their native tongue. <.<
Boy, was he surprised. He proceeded to respond to me: "Ulli mine." and "Your LS no get" or something in his best English.

It'd be quite the spectacle to see you, of all people, tell someone off. lawl. (srsly)

p.s. Did SK have to quit? I only heard about what happened. :dozingoff