Killing Ifrit - a Final Fantasy community: Norelle - Viewing Profile

==Last Update: December 1, 2008==

[I just realized that this is going to end up being very long so I'll probably make a note as to where you should look if you don't have time to spend reading about me. Also decided to add a version No. to help know when there's been a change in case people are interested in my life ]

Also, if you guys like to hear my thoughts & more about me, leave me a comment & I'll try to continue writing. I see a few people returning now & then so, maybe I should write more xD

Summary:

Um, let's see...
I am very sensitive also extremely shy if you meet me in person you'll notice right away that I wont look at you and, I'll just start laughing every 3 seconds. Even with people I already know I still do it so, just part of me I guess lol.

IRL I smile and laugh a lot and It's some of the things I'm known for; that, and my great hair of course I am now just out of High School and have no plans to start College for at least a year.


==Lengthy Version: 1.1==
More person information about myself below. It's much longer then the summary and will probably grow in length over time so, you don't have to read this part unless you choose to.

Lately I've been keeping to myself a lot and been overlooking my life and personality. People would always tell me how they could trust me and, almost everyone I knew acted differently when they were around me. It seemed to me that around their normal friends they could only act a certain way but, around me they were able to express some other ideas and interests and, I wouldn't treat them like they were weird. A quick example is one of my friends, Marc. He would always be wild, smoking etc. But anytime he was around me he would always tell me that he wanted to show me that he could stop smoking, he would stop being as rude to people around me and, would apologize to people he said something mean too when I could hear him. Another example would be my friend Brittany. She would always be out drinking, partying with her friends and whatnot but around me she was happy just doing little simple things like going for a walk, building random things with like books and boxes or more interesting things like running around in the desert in the middle of the night or sliding down hills on the back of a cardboard box.

But they main reason why I started to overlook things was because of a recent fight with my old friend. Apparently she said that I was really mean to her constantly without me even noticing and, she never said anything about it until one day when she went and started asking questions about me to other people they when she came and asked me if they were true I told her that she should be asking me questions about me and not asking other people. That eventually turned into a huge dramatic mess with us no longer talking. What I learned from that is that I tend to be mean to the people who are close to me and nicer to those who aren't which really makes no sense, so I've taken a lot of thought into it and have hopefully emerged a better person. You might notice now that I try less & less to say rude things to people unless I'm joking around but, I'm even tring to stop the jokes and just keeping it nice & simple.

What I've observed about myself is that I tend to have two strong personalities I change from. My first being my wild side that comes out when I'm around my friends. I will be a lot louder, more social, more willing to take risks and whatnot. Then I have my deep thought side, which usually observes things from many perspectives instead of just the one provided, is usually more optimistic and always looking for the bright side of any situation, tries less to fight & more to learn from situations and grow and, also takes much less risks. This side is the one I'm trying to stick with; even though when I'm with friends I still tend to make jokes now and then, they are less "out there" and, more little "haha" jokes rather then, "Omfg I can't believe you just said that-" jokes.

I also choose the title "The Dreamer" because I tend to always be in a different world then others. When people try to describe me they never can, they will just say that I'm "me". I never really stuck to a group of people that I enjoyed being with all the time, I really like seeing everyone around me, listening to everyone's stories and learning about them. Since Kindergarten to High School I was always the same way; just jumped from clique to clique and made friends with everyone, even some of the teacher would enjoy talking to me saying that I was a lot different from the other students but, not in a way that made me stick out just more like I fit in with everyone not just one group (which saved me from a lot from suspensions since I would always seem to question some teachers or say that there was no point in doing a certain things which would interrupt the class and made me become a class clown but, the Principal loved me and though I was really funny so she always let me off the hook. Especially the time a teacher tried to suspend me for biting my nails xD) Because of this though I normally choose to be alone most of the time rather then with people, but still enjoy visiting friends everyday or so.

I think I choose to be alone because in the past when I've tried to explain all of my thoughts to someone they would either think I'm insane, get very angry at me, take what I say the wrong way, say I contradict myself too often, or that I'm just not someone they want to be around so, I tend to just keep my innermost thoughts to myself and try to avoid deep conversations about myself.

Strangely enough something caught my ear today, "passive-aggressiveist". I was just watching TV & for some reason when I heard that I was compelled to just find out what it meant. I had always heard it before & and made assumptions on what the meaning was anytime I heard it due to the context it was used in, but never had I actually looked up the actual meaning of the word. To my surprise when I looked it up I had several symptoms of passive-aggressiveness. I was actually pretty surprised to learn this, but also I've already realized I had some of the individual symptoms but, never gave them a name. It's kinda like if you've been pushing dust around with a broom forever & then finally learned It's called sweeping lol. So today, I learned something new about myself, sometimes have passive-aggressive behavior. Learn something everyday